I grew up in a family where affection was nonexistent and sex was what other people did. It was also considered the most taboo and shameful subject. I’m not at all surprised the sensual arts have always interested me and beckoned my undivided attention, especially in the areas of what was considered taboo.
From dancing at an early age to exploring my body with other young girls, my earliest sensual memories are those of having to keep it secret and hidden. Discovering self-pleasuring in my early teens was absolutely mind-blowing and the word orgasm was avoided because it’s connected to a sinful deed. And my parents were atheists!?!? SO CONFUSING!
This really ignited a magnitude of curiosity within me for sensual and sexual exploration of my own erotic innocence. I wanted to know why nudity and sex were so shameful. I wanted to understand it all.
My relationship with my yoni and Intimate partners deepened as I began the journey of honoring this curiosity in this divine vessel of mine. It quickly became evident that how much I appreciated and respected my body, is how much my partners did the same. Through the journey of yoga finding me and Tantra teaching me, I began my exploration of sacred sexuality learning greatly from my teachers, but mostly from my direct experiences and through my divine feminine reflective process. Through my own self-inquiry, the ancestral seeds of shame and low self-worth began to heal around what I truly desire. The Kama Sutra was one of my earliest introductions to devotional lovemaking over two decades ago and I knew that sex can be so much more powerful than I understood yet.
I began to understand that the path of Tantra is as rigid as the flow of the river and weaved into my life through being a wife, student, mother, lover, partner, teacher, and entrepreneur. Every one of these roles have given me great reflections into the darkest corners of my mind and into the brightest and juiciest possibilities of life.
Amidst the multitude of hats I wore, my muted vagina always emerged and showed up as low self-confidence and not deserving. It became obvious when attempting to own my sexuality in partnership how much shame was ruling my actual reality. It was only in my imagination that I was a passionate lover and worshiped as a goddess. It also became undeniable how much I showed up in the bedroom as an advocate for my own pleasure, is how much I showed up as an advocate for the rest of my life. Not a mirror I was pleased to look into; at first anyways. I loved the idea of being freely expressive in my sexuality and once in a while experiencing pure ecstatic bliss in the most intimate settings. This was enough to keep leaning in for more. To my realization this bliss became a direct exchange for and willingness to face the inescapable shadows gripping my ability to choose my desires and to be my most fervent self.
I chose the path of sexual liberation for my healing or maybe it chose me, but either way the only choice which remained was doing the transformational work to heal what has been holding me back. I have definitely used my sexuality in avoidance to get away from it all as well as to do the deepest healing and experience the most profound transformations of my life. I have learned excellent tools and practices to weave into my daily life to keep me grounded while navigating between the challenges and the sparks.
I transformed abandonment into faith, attachment into curiosity, low self-worth into courage, shame into ecstasy, and lack into passionate desire.
Living life in the fullness of trust opens me up to ongoing learning and embracing changes as the way of the river. I thrive with my playful sensuality, and liberated passions as the curated expressions of my ferocious dedication to all that I embody.
I am truly grateful to live this life of miracles, growth and conscious evolution and honored to be in service to help you do the same. I know you too can transform the pain-bearing obstacles into your most sought-after liberation. I am here to offer witness, hold space and support you in your fullness so you can experience the wilding untamed spirit ignite within you.
My relationship with my yoni and Intimate partners deepened as I began the journey of honoring this curiosity in this divine vessel of mine. It quickly became evident that how much I appreciated and respected my body, is how much my partners did the same. Through the journey of yoga finding me and Tantra teaching me, I began my exploration of sacred sexuality learning greatly from my teachers, but mostly from my direct experiences and through my divine feminine reflective process. Through my own self-inquiry, the ancestral seeds of shame and low self-worth began to heal around what I truly desire. The Kama Sutra was one of my earliest introductions to devotional lovemaking over two decades ago and I knew that sex can be so much more powerful than I understood yet.
I began to understand that the path of Tantra is as rigid as the flow of the river and weaved into my life through being a wife, student, mother, lover, partner, teacher, and entrepreneur. Every one of these roles have given me great reflections into the darkest corners of my mind and into the brightest and juiciest possibilities of life.
Amidst the multitude of hats I wore, my muted vagina always emerged and showed up as low self-confidence and not deserving. It became obvious when attempting to own my sexuality in partnership how much shame was ruling my actual reality. It was only in my imagination that I was a passionate lover and worshiped as a goddess. It also became undeniable how much I showed up in the bedroom as an advocate for my own pleasure, is how much I showed up as an advocate for the rest of my life. Not a mirror I was pleased to look into; at first anyways. I loved the idea of being freely expressive in my sexuality and once in a while experiencing pure ecstatic bliss in the most intimate settings. This was enough to keep leaning in for more. To my realization this bliss became a direct exchange for and willingness to face the inescapable shadows gripping my ability to choose my desires and to be my most fervent self.
I chose the path of sexual liberation for my healing or maybe it chose me, but either way the only choice which remained was doing the transformational work to heal what has been holding me back. I have definitely used my sexuality in avoidance to get away from it all as well as to do the deepest healing and experience the most profound transformations of my life. I have learned excellent tools and practices to weave into my daily life to keep me grounded while navigating between the challenges and the sparks.
I transformed abandonment into faith, attachment into curiosity, low self-worth into courage, shame into ecstasy, and lack into passionate desire.
Living life in the fullness of trust opens me up to ongoing learning and embracing changes as the way of the river. I thrive with my playful sensuality, and liberated passions as the curated expressions of my ferocious dedication to all that I embody.
I am truly grateful to live this life of miracles, growth and conscious evolution and honored to be in service to help you do the same. I know you too can transform the pain-bearing obstacles into your most sought-after liberation. I am here to offer witness, hold space and support you in your fullness so you can experience the wilding untamed spirit ignite within you.